I'm little lost with my style. I wanna be girlish, have long brown hair, beautiful nails and pretty clothes.. But at the same time I wanna have short neon colors hair, rock out everybodys ass ja dressed up to black/violet or blue. Not so sure what summer comes up with c: There's no way I can mix all those things up, but I'll do my best... Someday :D
Here's some pictures for you.
Girlish, and then...
Yup, something like Ruki's hair/look c:
The most I love the second picture about that red hair ulzzang. That's my goal..
We played, sang, screamed, drank, smoked, hugged. Yes, I truly hugged him. I don't know how it happend but suddenly I just noticed that I was in his arms. And it felt great.
I should forget him and move on 'cause he had an another lady...
Today were the very first time that I was snowboarding. Yes, I live in Finland and yes, I'm 16 but I've never snowboarded EVER. So you know how I sucks at the first trying. For the second try I got a teacher to help me and then I broke my thumb ^^" What a brilliant girl I am... But don't even think that made me stop. Once I desing something, I'm going to do my everything 'till I get there. So it didn't stop me even if the teacher told me to do another way. : D This is going to backfire tomorrow but I don't care... I love the feeling after this hard work. So finally when we had a little break w./ my two friend I made it. I stayed on the board and got down without falling every another second. It was just awesome! I glad that I'm that kind of person who learn quickly and can even remember stuffs. Once in my life I'm proud of myself c:
My thumb is broken, my butt is hurting so terribly and my foot and arms are shaking, but it was worth it all : ) It pays all that back right away : )
Those friend of mine were Manu and one guy. He is a little bit reject, but we found out that he's very sweet personality. We had a great time w./ him : ) I'm glad that I got knowing better of him.
But tomorrow to the doctor and something like that : D I need to go to study Swedish and little bit English, too. So see ya <3
I'm little messed up, but that's kind of okay... I don't know why, but that's how I feel right now. It's hard to be vivid when I'm stressed about a every thing. My studies doesn't go the way I've planned and it's seems to be hard to do anything. After this school day I just walked home with C.C. and I got a one smoke. Just one to relief my nerves. And I after that I got home, I just fall on a our sofa, watched the Mamma Mia! again and took a little nap. Tomorrow we are going to snowboarding so this night is just chillin' : )
MY NEW HAIR
Still look like a normal girl? : o Sure... Do you like my new hair style? Do you? huh? ^ ^
This guy is everything to me... The very first song I heard from him was Beauty Stupid at 6th grade.
Then there were couple years pause and I found him again at the summer before my 8th grade. I was so in love that I needed to buy a fan shirt. And then... then I found my greatest friend ever♥ All caused by hide and his music. He's the reason why I'm still here, so as do my friend : )
Hideto Matsumoto a.k.a hide born in 1964 and died in 1998. Sad times, sad times I say....
I was only 3years old when he died, but I love him now more than anything. Who wouldn't love one who saves lifes? Even after his dead...
hide's dead was tradegy... Hanging and coma. Sometimes I can feel Yoshiki's pain.
OFC, hide played before his solo career in X Japan.♥
After all these years his spirits stays here with us... And his music lives forever.
And this is the song which inspired me and gave me my user name almost every where.
LEMONed I scream.
Egao de arigatou, sayonara, genkide iteneto... With forever love.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep Because my dreams are bursting at the seams
It's hard to me to fall asleep. I cannot forgot all those news from this weekend. They just spin around in my head and keeps me awake. Even thought I have to go to a school tomorrow, I cannot even think that I would go to a bed early tonight. I hate bad news...
Last night lady next door pick me up from one parties. I was so tired after my three hours sleep that I just watched our city... Our city it pretty known in the Finland because of lights. 'City of the lights', they say.
I've lived here whole my life, but a yesterday or a night, I really stoped to think about how beautiful this place is. It's been a while since I last time was so late at a center so I just wathced the bridge and lights and lake...
I desinged to do something like this last night but I couldn't do that anymore... So here it is!!
X Japan
Pretty old band, let me say. X Japan founded in 1982 and they disbanded in 1997. I was only baby when the disbanded.
I heard my firts song from X Japan in 2009 and I fell in love with it right away. The first song was X Japan's Tears.
Then I found song like Longing ~Togireta Melody~, Endless Rain, Kurenai, Weekend...
But nowadays one of my favorite is Rusty Nail.
It's been a while since I last time listened to X Japan's music, but last night I started it up again.
It was so fantastic to hear the beautiful piano, the dangerous guitars, the aggressive drums and Toshi's enviable voice.
Music hit me like a hurrigane and I wasn't able to do nothing more than sit and listen.
It brought me back all those forgotten memories and all those feelings from that time.
I cannot say more than thank you to Toshi, Pata, Heath, Yoshiki and of course to hide. X Japan's song really saved my life a long time ago. It was music which I was able to rely on...
Song that make me scream, jump, cry, sing, laugh, smile, past out, love and insane...
I love X Japan. : )
This all about X... which I wanna tell you. I wont tell you their whole history or something. I wanna tell you what I feel about their music : ) you know...
But next time I tell what only hide did to my life.
This day is just so terrible. I was so worried about Japan for a moment since I heard about tsunamis. It just took my breathe away for a while. I was so afraid for all those peoples in Japan and I couldn't do more than pray... My medicine put me fall asleep before 4pm and I woke up right before 7pm and I've just watched the News.
Today was propably the worse day in my life... So far. I got migraine seizure and that's why I took that pill. Unfortunely I puked all my insides out and after that I fall asleep, as you already know. When I woke up I wasn't able to move even my arm to check out my phone. It was hard work to get up from bed.
You know... Right after I was got my whole body to livin' room I heard that this Guy were datin' somebody else... I have to wait to summer that I can say something to him about my feelings and yup... I'm screwed... Deep in sh*t.
This situations is so crap, just crap, I would cry... Those things what have happend in Japan and all those news and everything...
My morning started when I woked up at 6am and read a text message from my friend (she was sended it time at 2am) and I just put my makeups on and then my another friend phoned me when I was leavin' my home. She asked my couple of things and then we desinged to walk together to the school. We hand't make that since we were at 6th grade : D It has been three years now...
Oh my gosh... I'm a guide at our school. Or one of them, we have almost 20 at our school. That is voluntary thing, but I loved the idea since I was 8th grade. You never don't guess what happened... Those visitors were Japanese♥ It was my time to shine! I talked them little bit Japanese and I understood some thing what they were talking about : ) It took our two first lessons and we were our theacher lunch room just drinkin' coffee with them and talkin' stuff our school life. Guides were five. That really made my day ^^ So if some one in Japan see me at that tape which one of them took so greetings from Finland.
Well, that was almost everything. Now I have that blue dye in my hair and probably tomorrow you get some pictures : ) But it see ya now♥
Alright, let's calm down... I KNOW that many of you subs me in youtube just 'cause of my old videos. My old videos, where I'm still young and look like some visual kei-ish guy and stuff. BUT JUST TO NOTICE. I. AM. NOT. INTO. J-ROCK. ANYMORE. So if you wait for some kind of new v-k videos it's too late ^^ Ofc, I love that kind of style still but I'm more into scene stuly and gyaru, all kind of girlish stuff. My hair is getting longer ang longer, my eyeliner line is gettin thinner and thinner. My clothes are normal people kinds. If my hair would be shorter and red or some another interesting color then I think I would do that kind of videos some more. So if you're gonna sub me watch my newest videos : )
I'm not going to apologize 'cause I love to look like this. Or I don't, but I'm too lazy to but 5cm eyeline every morning time at 6am... Even if, my hair isn't like I would like it, but anyway.... I'm not gonna change anymore so. Take it or leave it : )
These are those two hair styles that I would like to have..
Hannie Dropkick^
I know these two are so different kind, but I love both and my goal is get long hair before we move into USA : ) I really, really, really, hontoni want BLUE HAIR but 'cause one of my friend have hair like that already I cannot have ;__; Maybe I put purple or some green to my hair...
But ANYWAY my day was gorgeous and wild and I had some great time with C.C. at our film history lessons (elokuvahistoria in finnish). We just poked our faces and laughed and stuff. : ) I think I need to go now... I feel dizzy... So bye ♥
And that Carsons parting just spinned around my head all day long : D
I wanna write to you for some reason ^^ I feel pretty odd 'cause my skin is burnin at neck. Maube cuz my big brother strangle me last night when we fighted or my mom thinks that I'm sick again_... But anyway.
We had a parties last night for some reason, I have no idea : D My mom just desing that 'HEY', and then we all just partied. Here was my this guy which I've crussed, my bro, his gf, mom and my little sister. This Guy picked me up when I was sitting on the floor and he just laughed at me whole night. We had nice chat and everything and today we had more great time. He is so cute and adorable, and I hated myself when I hadn't any make-up and my hair was dirty... But I'll see him soon and hopefuly I look better then.
Omnomnom. I think I'll watch a movie tonight : ) It's last night of these holidays and I'm going to stay up very very late. So I'll watch 'Despicable Me' again. Those Minions are just so super and we always laught at this video w./ my bro : D
And one picture without lenses and piercings.
And song which reminds me of this Guy : )
This post was pretty long and I love those who can read this whole thing and still commend something : ) Luv Ya♥
Ps. My new camera doesn't love me so I don't know when I can make next video : ( Sorry honeys...
Heyyyy, guys. Finally I write something to you : ) Here isn't so many readers even to read this one but anyway.
My B-day was couple of days ago, and today I probably party that w./ C.C. : D I'm not sure 'bout that yet but I hope so. Nothing special aren't happend and I've looked like same as always. I wanna show you some pictures my normal days : )
I've cutted my hair and bleached to white. Love it ♥
My old hair...
I got my Cupcake Cults hoodie today and I love it more than anything right now. ^ ^ ♥ I go now wait for C.C and stuff. See ya♥
